Childhood-1

 I decided to write some simple stories to explore how I developed this character and personality. Actually, we all know it must begin with my childhood, right? I  have some obscure memories, not very clear because, you know, I was just a baby, my parents started in a very poor situation, they worked so hard that I could have a good environment to live in, they do some small business in the market at the beginning, they are swamped and don't have enough time to take care me, they send me to my grandparent's home which in the countryside far away from the city. My grandparents said they could do them a favor, but I was so delicate and vulnerable that I got a severe disease when I arrived in the countryside. Unfortunately, they chose not to tell my parents and took me to the little clinic, so the situation became more and more serious when my parents found it and took me to the hospital. I have severe sequela, some nerve injury, and I can not hear anything in my right ear, they said.

It's tough to deal with this situation in my childhood. The child is cruel and hurtful sometimes; they will insult and mock you when you are different and look weak. What I could do is just arm myself with armor to protect myself. My rule of survival in school was to observe and learn from the most popular people in the school. I began to deliberately approach their small group, gaining favor through humor and giving, and the results were obvious I became popular, even though it wasn't really me, and I realized the importance of camouflaging my ego in this regard. I remember pretending to be a rebel in middle school in order to fit in... sounds crazy right? I'd deliberately contradict teachers, cut my hair short, dress up like a tomboy, communicate in an offensive way, etc.